Beautiful Things....

Oh GOD, when was this? When? 2006? Is it ok, is it normal to hear a random song that you used to listen to years ago or I don't know and then to burst into tears? I mean, why is it like this? It's not a happy song. But it's an optimistic one. No matter how happy the song is, the moment I realize it's part of my past, my heart breaks. And I feel so horrible, I want it to stop.... it's as if the past isn't part of me anymore...I'm only a mere person standing aside and watching everything happen. It scares me. Why? I really need answers to this one. It's been bothering me my whole life but everyone I talk to about it (mostly in a "ha-ha I've heard this song today and I bursted into tears and fell to the floor...everyone has that, right? hahahha" kind of way) doesn't seem to understand me. Imma go eat my tortellinis now.

Bubbles..............(no relevance between the title and the entry)

I honestly feel like the most shallow person on the planet. Sorry. I just read a blog entry that a good friend of mine posted last month and I don't know... Even though she's much smarter, better organized, a thousand times more hard working than me, I could never let myself envy her. I admire her so much and for some reason it hurts me a lot when I hear about bad things that are happening in her life. And when something good happens I feel such an extreme happiness and I....I wish her the best in life. We're not as close as we used to be anymore but I still love her and if she'd ever need my help I'd be there for her. From time to time I remember how much I miss her. But then I ask myself... do I miss "her" or just the old times? I don't really care about that. I just want to know that she exists and that there's always a chance that we'll meet up and hang out like old grandmas and talk about our relationships, future plans and immortal memories.



LOL the cleaning lady just came here and she's always telling me to take care of my vajaja because "abstinence would suck for both of you!". She's awesome. And she's 52 years old.

crazy SHIT! --- I really don't know what to do with this blog anymore...

Duuuuuuuude I soooooo want to type something on this site but I have no inspiration. And I desperately need to pee right now but I SHOULDN'T. Long story, personal stuff, can't explain.

FINE let's talk about...INCEPTION! Nah, don't want to talk about that movie. Yes, it was amazing and I'll definitely see it again when I'm in Romania and yes, I'm one of those people who think that Cobb was dreaming the whole time. YOU WON'T CONVINCE ME OTHERWISE...so....TITS OR GTFO!

Rise Against is really a cool band. I would like to see my cousin and his daughter. I'm still shocked. I NEEEEEEEED a life right now. What is this strange SATANIC music? Let me check. Oh it's that intro song by xAFBx. CRAZY SHIT! :))))

The Beatles music sounds great at the moment. There's a "Straßenfest" going on outside. Looks cool. Too bad I'm ALL ALONE and rotting in my personal little hell for that.

Calm down, Ioana. You'll see him on Monday. You'll make it 'till then. *shock* What if I don't?! :O

AAAAAAAAA I have so much stuff to do! And no, I'm not talking about cleaning up and doing dishes and buying some stuff for my parents and myself....I have to do some "super important official" stuff :( I hate that SO effin much. Random noise what was that?!

Damn, I missed it because I'm listening to music while lying in bed. My neighbour had sex today. EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW gross. I mean I know I shouldn't even DARE to complain but I still find it gross. As long as I'M doing it, it's ok. OMG the guy is still at her place. So there's a possibility that they might have sex again pretty soon. Thank God they're not like us..... I'd hang myself otherwise. I want a kitty

Damn, I love him so much.

WHAAAAAA?

So...the season of the fall begins...

LOL

not

Yeah so I haven't written in English for a while now...I know my reasons, even if they're idiotic. He's probably NOT reading this stuff but YOU NEVER KNOW.

I don't really feel like posting anything today, it's just that my last post annoys me. It makes me feel sick but I don't really want to delete it so the only solution would be to post as many entries until I can't see it anymore. 3 more days and I'll be exam free! I fucking ADORE the song I'm listening to. Even if it's sad. I'm going to listen to it again. It makes me type like a drunk duck. Fuck even.

CArriooooooooooooooooooonn xDDD

Right. So the thing is that everything in my life is pretty constant. Nothing major is happening. I got a good grade today. That's always a surprise :D

But life is good. I have nothing to complain about. Well I'm kind of BROKE and feeling pressured because of that but at least I'm healthy and loved. That doesn't stop me from buying cigarettes though. HAR HAR STFU. Ok, ok, I didn't buy any today = WIN!

In a moment I've looooost / Taken from the insiiiiideee

ROMANIAAAAAAA I'm cummming inside your vajaja in 2 weeks!

=) Just kidding. But I am coming to see your scarred but pretty face. I missed ya :*

So. Za question iz. For how long can you be in love with someone if you see them very often? Doesn't it start driving you crazy after a few months? I mean the feeling that you're rotting inside. =)))) Ok, that's not the feeling you get but you know what I mean, bro!

The loooooooooooooooooong 18th century in English Literature *love*. Just joking. I fucking HATE IT! Nah, not really. I don't even know what it's about yet. But tomorrow I'll be like a pro. HELL YEAH!

AAAAANGEEERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR! (it's just a song I'm listening to)

Alright, honeys, I'll go to bed now.

And remember kids, teh SEXUAL INTERCOURSE IS EVIL! Abstinence is the solution to all of your problems. HAHHAHAHHAHHAHA

NOT :| *EXTREMELY serious face*

Fosta lui prietena.

Hmm. Oare sunt singura care are o problema cu fosta prietena a actualului iubit? Nu cred. Chiar si daca nu o cunosti, numai ideea ca exista si ca probabil il cunoaste mult mai bine pe el decat tine pentru ca au fost mai mult impreuna te scoate din sarite. Afli ca relatia lor nu a fost grozava, se certau tot timpul, sexul cam lipsea si era destul de plictisitor si totusi, au fost impreuna atata timp. Da, nu poti sa te gandesti ca ah, da, cu mine e mult mai bine, are tot ce i-a lipsit pana acum. Sigur erau anumite lucruri pe care el le iubea la ea si din cauza lor trecea peste toate celelalte parti negative.
Bun. Sa zicem ca pe el nu il mai intereseaza problema. Ea i-a dat papucii pentru ca este o jegoasa egoista, emo neinteles (pleonasm, ma scuzati) sau mai simplu, o fata simpla de la tara, care la orice schimbare in viata ei nu mai stie ce sa faca. El a suferit mult timp pentru ca isi imagina ca ea va fi cea cu care isi va petrece restul zilelor, cea cu care va intemeia o familie. O contacteaza, ea nu mai raspunde. I-a spus ca nu il mai iubeste. El inca mai spera. Pe urma te cunoaste pe tine. Si esti un vis. Esti tot ce nu e ea. Bine, in timp descopera si defectele tale, dar toate lucrurile acestea marunte, atata timp cat nu sunt dominante, sunt oarecum necesare pentru a face o relatie mai interesanta. El spune ca nu o mai iubeste. Se poate. Desi nu stiu de ce imi vine atat de greu sa cred ca nu mai are niciun fel de sentiment fata de ea. Macar fata de ce au avut, habar n-am. Trebuie sa mai fie ceva! Si nu, nu ma refer la ura. In fine. Tu il crezi, iti vezi de treaba, totul e frumos. Afli ca ea l-a sunat. Panica. Ea vrea sa stea de vorba, el nu. E bine. Ii trimite un mail. Il citesti (pentru ca el te-a intrebat daca vrei, nu pt ca esti o femeie nebuna care ii stie parolele si ii verifica mailurile, facebook si mai stiu eu ce) si ti se face rau pentru ca se pare ca ea dupa 1001358u0139581 de ani de cand i-a zis "Baiete, m-am mutat la oras, am cunoscut multi oameni, simt ca ma sufoc cu tine, pa." incepe sa realizeze ca ii e dor de el. Probabil ca a trecut printr-un moment nasol de curand si se gandeste des la momentele frumoase din ultimii 4-5 ani petrecuti cu el. Spera ca el sa iasa cu ea la o cafea. "Imi lipsesti." El spune:"O sa-i dau datele contului meu ca sa imi trimita banii pe care mi-i datoreaza." (...) "Daca as mai fi indragostit de ea, mi-as face sperante acum."

Da, cred si eu. Dar din cauza asta o urasc cu adevarat. Urasc cand oamenii fac chestii din astea. Ai fost o gramada de ani cu cineva si nu a mers, e CLAR ca nu o sa mearga niciodata. Dar incerci si incerci si incerci si te chinui ingrozitor de mult si suferi. Si ea tot o sa te calce in picioare. Crezi ca s-a schimbat acum pentru ca dintr-o data s.a transformat intr-o fata de oras? Nu, tot e o vaca ignoranta cu probleme sociale. Desi poate ca nu ar trebui sa-mi fac niciun fel de griji, ea tot reprezinta un pericol pentru mine. Femeile sunt ingrozitoare. Sunt monstri. Dar intr-o astfel de situatie nu as face ce face ea.

Vreau sa zac pe plaja intr-o zi placuta de August......:/

Hmmm...din nou am senzatia ca nu am cui sa ma destainui. Nu am cui sa cer sfaturi.... Persoanele cu care vreau sa vorbesc nu sunt disponibile si simt ca innebunesc pentru ca am nevoie de suport moral! Nu pot de una singura....devine obositor si pfff...nu stiu. Ma simt trista azi. Mai ales incepand cu ora 3 PM. Nu stiu cum o sa reusesc. Imi vine sa vars. La figurat, desigur =)). De ce esti asa presata? Mmmhhh poate pt ca pentru mine totul e mult mai complicat si o sa mor pe scaunul asta, vreau acasa. Inca 40 de minute. AAAAAAAAAA :((((((((
Sunt plina de ganduri din alea MEGA emo =))))). Bine, las-o asa. Have fun de 1 Mai <3 :)

Dressed to kill, you look so right; I am drunk with lust tonight.

Pfff...m-am mai simtit vreodata asa? Habar n-am... poate ca pauza asta o sa fie buna? Sper sa nu se schimbe nimic pt el. :D
Ah si ascult numai muzica emo in ultima vreme. Dar e asa placut pt ca am din nou senzatia ca am 18 ani. Si e asa...a never ending youth. Ce dulce eee. Multumesc :)

Pana la urma am postat asta xD - eram la serviciu atunci

Bun. Decat sa stau si sa ma gandesc si sa nu pot sa ma adun mai bine scriu. Nu o sa arat nimanui asta, dar nu conteaza. Asa. Tipul ala...Aaa parca mi-e jena sa scriu pt ca am impresia ca o sa citeasca cineva. In fine. Vreau sa incerc sa ma conving ca nu are chef de mine si ca vrea sa-mi spuna ca bai, uite cum sta treaba...bla bla bla. Pt ca atunci nu o sa fiu CHIAR atat de dezamagita. Dar totusi, de ce m-a contactat dupa atat timp? Da, pt mine aproape o sapt inseamna o vesnicie. Nu stiu cum sa reactionez. Oare o sa tina minte sa ma sune? Parca era dragut. Nu mai stiu. Stiu ca avea un piercing in buza. Si ca se comporta ca un homosexual. Ce draguuuuuut. =^.^=

Asa, sa fim realisti. N-am nicio sansaaaa si daca am, sigur o sa intervina ceva. Ori din partea lui, ori a mea. In afara de asta...ce dracu facea de unul singur in club? Cum sa te duci intr-un club de unul singur doar pt ca prietenii tai nu vor sa mearga? Adica, inteleg ca ai chef dar e aiurea. Omul nu a vorbit cu nimeni toata seara. Iti creezi o aura dubioasa stand singur. Nu poti sa dansezi pt ca e aiurea si daca stai si te uiti la lume arati ca un violator in serie sau pur si simplu un tip singuratic, probabil pedofil sau criminal care nu are prieteni. E ciudat..bine, nu era multa lume in club dar in mod normal ar fi sarit ceva gagici pe el. Mereu se intampla asa. Pana si cei mai fraieri sunt acostati de tipe. Ma rog, el a cam evitat pe toata lumea. Speram si eu ca se uita la mine si cand trec pe langa el intoarce capul O_O. INTOARCE CAPUL in partea cealalta like "whoa nu pot sa ma uit la tine, hai, treci mai repede". Groaznic. Ma gandeam mda, mi s-a parut ca se uita la mine. Probabil ca se uita la mine pt ca EU ma uitam la el si se intreba ce e cu aia? Ce se tot holbeaza la mine? Ma vrea...pacat ca e pocita. LOL. Ma intreb daca m-a vazut cand m-am pupacit cu Olga. X_X Who knows. Dar cand a zis cati ani are ce reactie a avut parca "hmm...hai sa gasesc ceva care sa o faca pe-asta sa zica ah, esti naspa bai, nu ne potrivim, mie imi plac gnomii de fapt...Ah, am 25 de ani! :/ *sorry, i hope you don't mind*" cu o fatza din aia "am prietena, SCUZE", "am deja ceva de baut, SCUZE", "nu-ti sta bine cu par, SCUZE"...stii?

Vai ma pis pe mine aici nu mai pot. Ma cam strange cureaua. Dar hai ca mai rezist eu 45 de minute. Mai bine nu scriam asta. 45 de minute! Iisuse! xD Imi place sa zic Iisuse. Suna asa dramatic. Vaiiiiiii oare ce are sa-mi zica? Japonezul ala nu mai vine. Asta e. Probabil ca nu o sa ne vedem niciodata. Nu ca eu as fi avut vreo intentie sa il vad IRL dar daca tot s-a ivit ocazia uai nat? Trece cam greu timpul. Nu-mi place. Sunt paroasa. Najpa. Poate zice Janoooo hai la discotheque avec moaie! Si io nu pot Ioane ca am per pe maini! Slaaabe sanse. Slaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaabe rau. (3,14)² striga vezica mea. Imi pare rau, darling, trebuie sa le servesc patria la ajtia. O singura persoana vorbeste la telefon in cladirea asta acum. I can has toilets? 21:21 Termina-te bai ca-mi strici freza. Da, hai ca a trecut. E si 22. Daca e, la fara un sfert ma duc la baie. Nu se poate. Si n-am chef sa sun pe nimeni sa le zic iar, fietilor, ma duc si je la baie, pot sa pun tielifonu pe redirectionare apeluri? Aha, gracias darling. Sunt o printesa. Nu pot sa dezvalui adevarurile dureroase din spatele acestei masti perfecte. Nu vorbeste nimeni la telefon. Pot sa plec? :) Inca 20 de minute. Vai ce mult!

Dun dun dun! *dramatic*

Have you ever watched a movie or something similar in a language you don't understand and without subtitles and during a dramatic scene where someone starts crying you can't help but cry too and feel for the character? It's fascinating! I guess it's called good acting but that's not what I'm trying to say here. A few days ago I took a cab to work and the driver was Serbian. Friendly guy. We started talking about the languages of the world and how odd they are and that even if we don't understand each other through words, we still are the same. And we understand the body language and bla bla I don't want to get into this. It's one of those topics that lots of people write on and everybody knows something about it and it's not hard to figure out how it works. But yeah, I was moved by a scene in a TV Series episode and after feeling like I was about to burst into tears I realized that "hey, I don't even know what they were arguing about but she looked extremely hurt and she never cried during the series and the other guys there were like WHOA, she can cry! which means that this is a special intense moment and the guy who yelled at her looks like he feels sorry for what he did but he won't apologize yet." It was probably the background music too, which I didn't notice but I'm sure was there. *sigh*

I have to go to work tomorrow. And then go back to being anti-social.

Peace!

No offense, but your friends keep turning up dead.

"She nearly ran into the person standing in the hall. Her gaze jerked up, off her own feet, to take in fashionably ratty deck shoes, some foreign kind. Above that were jeans, body hugging, old enough to look soft over hard muscles. Narrow hips. Nice chest. Face to drive a sculptor crazy: sensuous mouth, high cheekbones. Dark sunglasses. Slightly tousled black hair. Bonnie stood gaping a moment.

Oh, my God, I forgot how gorgeous he is, she thought. Elena, forgive me; I'm going to grab him.

"Stefan!" she said."

Things that tend to look the same? Or just bad timing. (+movie trailers at the end)

Ok. As much as I hate these:

Paris, Cathedral of Notre Dame

Chartres, Cathedral of Notre Dame

Reims, Cathedral of Notre Dame

Bayeux, Cathedral of Notre Dame

I pretty much find annoying all these new movies that will hit the cinemas this year. Don't you have the impression that they all tend to be the same? Well at least the trailers do. It seems that we're such a depressed folk that we desperately need to dive into some sort of a fantasy world which obviously involves lots of fighting and sweating in wars. Oh and mythology. And the music in the trailers!!! It's like they just discovered that heavy guitar riffs go perfectly with action scenes put in slow motion and then sped up. I mean I'm excited to see these movies, I'm not going to lie. Still, it bugs me. And is Sam Worthington going to be the main character in every awesome movie from now on? I really like him but it's hard for me to switch my brain from one story to another having the same face in front of my eyes.

Here are the magnificent trailers:

1. Clash of the Titans

2. The Season of the Whitch

3.Robin Hood

4. Solomon Kane

5. Prince of Persia

6. Percy Jackson & the Olympians

Some old things I wrote in a notebook

12 Sept. 2008

Ce de motociclisti pe autostrada.
Anberlin.
August evenings bring solemn warnings to remember to kiss the ones you love good night.

Succes. Succes?! Asta a fost tot? Dupa atatia ani? Dar presupun ca asa se termina tot. Cu un cuvant banal. Pa. Bafta. Te pup. Succes.

Nine in the Afternoon. Song of the year.
Abia astept sa ajung acasa. In Oberbilk. M-am razgandit. Cred ca vreau sa raman in Germania. Insa nu am precizat cu cine.

Parca e mai bine asa. Oh, Cinema Bizarre. Stai. Ce vis am avut?! Cine era ala?! Mai blond, asa. L-am intrebat stanjenita daca e vampir si el a zis razand ca da. Asa in stilul " Evident ca sunt, nu ti-ai dat seama pana acum?"
Awkward! Da. Normal ca exista vampiri. Sunt pur si simplu oameni cu anumite preferinte si placeri diferite de cele ale "colectivului". Oamenii tind sa exagereze cand povestesc intamplari. Si asa s-a ajuns la tot felul de monstri.

Hmmm.
Stefan, Dan, Remus, tipul ala dubios, Cum il chema pe ala?, Flo, ala cu dreaduri, P, Mihnea o_O wtf?! Bleah. Nu mai. Never. Everything is average nowadays. Cred ca Marcus m-ar injunghia din cauza asta. Sau mi-ar da foc =). Thank God he's in Salisbury.

Ce tot cade pe mine?! Ah, esarfe. Kippen!! Ba nu. Vreau un pat nou.
Blah. Stiu ca nu ma place. O inteleg ffff bine. Dar e asa o chestie...te urasc dar imi place de tine cand ma bagi in seama si te iubesc cand ma asculti si purtam discutii de suflet.

Tocmai a cazut un album foto peste mine. Ma doare bratul. M-a injurat cineva.
Sheeeee isn't real.... I can't make her real..... Bine. Kris.

"Urasc ziua asta de tipul 26:2=13" =))))) O gandisem mult pe-asta atunci.

Brusc, vreme oribila. NRW sux anus. Dar asezarea orasului asta e ideala. Intr-o zona aglomerata de orase mari, aproape de 3 granite si de UK.

Au ramas urme de la basicile facute de sandalele alea negre. Dar a fost o zi/seara draguta. Exceptand faza cu Irina x_X.

"Mergeti 3km, pe urma, si parasiti autostrada." =)))

16°C afara. O_O. Vreme de Noiembrie.

Inca un sfert de ora si ajung acasa. Trebuie sa imi ingrijesc bronzul. Hmmm...ce o sa fac cand o sa vina Calin? Pe unde sa-l duc? Eh, o sa incerc sa fiu spontana :DDD Abia astept.
Uhhh va trebui sa ma intalnesc cu Olli intr-o zi. Nu i-am zis lui Igor la multi ani de ziua lui O_O. Uh-oh. O sa-l sun.

My stalker is still out there somewhere. Cine naiba o fi?!

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Sunt in biblioteca. Urasc momentele cand te uiti in jurul tau si observi ca tipa care sta la masa alaturata are un pulover LA FEL ca al tau. Bine, al ei e un gri mai deschis. Si ea e naspa, iar eu sunt o printesa superba. Gata, m-am linistit. Back to the wonderful revision.
505 va fi dulapul meu cat timp stau pe-aici. Asta daca nu or sa mi-l ocupe altii. Blah, ce naspa e sa fii singur aici. Adica e plin de studenti, dar nimeni cunoscut. Oh nu, cred ca se apropie tipa cu puloverul. O aud dupa cum isi tot curata gatul. Smexy. Ah, nu vine. Joy. E pretty naspa tipul ala care fuma...ce fuma? Lucky Strike sau Marlboro. Poate crede ca il urmaresc. Nah, s-a asezat strategic langa WC-ul fetelor. El ma urmareste =). Ok, cu siguranta nu. Facultatile sunt pline de coincidente. Eu chiar nu credeam ca cineva imi citeste blogul. Adica vad un nr de oameni care mi l-au vizitat, dar...in fine. =) Multumesc persoanei care citeste acum aceasta fraza in acest moment. Un *muah* lipicios. Eww. Din ala cu lipgloss care ramane pe obraz. Dar nu sunt data cu nimic pe buze.

"Mehr Leistungen für Menschen mit Demenz...
Fachjournal des bad e.V. background
August 4/2008"

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Nu stiu cat o sa mai rezist aici.
Nu gasesc puterea de a ma convinge ca poate e mai bine asa.
- Ce imi doresc?
- Cand a inceput sa se intunece atat de devreme?
- Am un zid in fata (la propriu si la figurat)

Yogi Bear - Boomerang

Nu vreau sa fiu realista. Realismul nu te face fericit.
Am realizat ieri ca daca as avea acum foarte multi bani, nu m-as simti mai bine.
Money instead of happiness - PANICA (m-am speriat de un om in curte X_X)
Nu ma pot obisnui. Mirosul...nu e ce caut, nu e ce vreau, nu e acasa.
Trebuie sa-i scriu aluia. Navy. Frate. Nu stiu, nu cred ca as avea curajul sa ma bag la asa ceva. Dar are un vis si are sansa sa si-l urmeze. Eu ce vis am? Nu am. Visez tot timpul, dar mereu e alta poveste, alta situatie, alt viitor.
Same as 5 years ago. August, Take this Bottle, lacrimi peste lacrimi.
Throat-decay.

*note from the present (a.k.a. 09.01.2010): Si acum urmeaza poezia inspirata de ce am scris mai sus. Nu o sa o scriu aici, o gasiti pe Writers-Network.com

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Fortune cookie messages:

1. You are a splendid tactician.
2. Wisdom can be given from one generation to the other.
3. Do you always need what you want?
4. You will overcome many difficulties without great problems.
5. An unexpected present will please you.

FASCINANTTTT!

Old English Poetry

Exeter Riddles

I'm a strange creature, for I satisfy women,
a service to the neighbours! No one suffers
at my hands except for my slayer.
I grow very tall, erect in a bed,
I'm hairy underneath. From time to time
a beautiful girl, the brave daughter
of some churl dares to hold me,
grips my russet skin, robs me of my head
and puts me in the pantry. At once that girl
with plaited hair who has confined me
remembers our meeting. Her eye moistens.

2009

January

Aloxa's New Years' Costume Party. Morticia. The first time I got REALLY drunk and lost my conscience and had to throw up O_O. And I kissed a random guy, although I was 100% sure that I didn't! Oh boy. I loved the next morning. Relaxed, nice sincere talk with my best friend. I miss her so much. I wish we could talk more but distance is a problem no matter what. Then I came back home to Düsseldorf and had to study for my last chance exam. Nothing special, I was drifting apart from my friends.

February

My last encounter with Economics. Fucked everything up. Went to Romania at the end of the month. Nothing special.

March

Still in Romania. I think it's a general rule that the most awesome things happen at the end of something. When you're about to leave. I was getting closer to the darkest period of my life. So this month was the BEST until December. I went out a lot, especially in El Comandante. Stefan introduced me to some germans. One of them was more interesting to me. Bla bla whatevs. I really liked him. But I was thinking too far. I'm a pretty realistic person but in this case I thought "hey, if you feel something, let it out! Don't analyse everything! Just go with the flow!". Bad idea :D. Oh and before that I met lots of nice people.

April

First 4 days, awesome. The rest... TONS of cigarettes, alcohol. Oh, and I was by myself while consuming all of that. Blood and a new road. What to do? English and Art History. Perfection. The only problem was that I could only start studying A.H. in October. So I took some English courses (Grammar, Translation, Literature, etc.). Tooootally different people there. And hundreds of girls. Met some nice people but it was difficult. It was hard to make new friends at that time. They were all in the 2nd semester and they already knew each other. The groups were already formed. There was only ONE cute guy there. From the ones that studied English. But I was 100% sure that he would never ever ever ever talk to me.

May

I was desperately looking for a job. The problem is that not only am I picky when it comes to boys, I'm picky about every fucking thing on this planet. So no degrading jobs (I'm not talking about prostitution, OBV. There are other jobs that make you feel like total shit and you KNOW you're smarter than that and that you could do so much better). No luck with that and I only went to uni 2 days a week. The rest was filled with the magnificent and productive act of wasting time.

June

The summer time was approaching! I could only think about my wonderful summer vacation that I would spend in Romania. Same routine. Going to uni, doing nothing, playing music from time to time, watching my hair grow and trying to lose weight. The last part isn't something new. At the end of the month a consulting company contacted me and asked me to come to an interview. I was in total shock. Firstly, because I never thought that I would get such a chance and secondly because I knew that if I started working, I wouldn't be able to stay in Romania for a longer period of time than 10 days.

July

At the beginning of the month nothing, then work! To be honest this job was the best thing that happened to me this year. I wouldn't want to be anywhere else right now. Bla bla, nothing special, next.

August

Exam, good grade,joy. Went to Romania for 10 days. Went to the seaside, stayed in 2Mai. It was very relaxing. Vama Veche wasn't as awesome as it was a year before, nothing will ever top that. That's a lie. I have no idea what will happen in the future. Met some weird people, I was pissed off most of the time. Yay for me. Met with Ale, I miss her again. Why do all people make the same mistakes? I mean girls with guys. You meet a guy, he drives you crazy, you can't keep your hands off him but he has a girlfriend. He's a jerk because he makes you feel like YOU are the one and not her but that's obviously not true. He'll go back to her. It's just that he's going through a weird time in his relationship and wants to clear his mind somehow. So he finds comfort in little you and breaks your heart. Fuck em. Just be careful next time and don't get fooled so easily. "It's a repeat and it's getting old".

September

Hmm, what the hell happened in September? Apart from work. Nothing? I guess so. I know that I was eagerly waiting for uni to start. I was super excited.

October

UNI! New people, chaos, not so awesome :/. I loved the things I learned there, still love them. Fascination. Went out sometime, met this weird guy in Pretty Vacant, Eisenhart! Cool name, huh? =)))

November

I just kept on meeting new people. Met this guy, Aaron who's mostly a prick but what can you do? Thank God he's not my type, or I would be dead by now. I fell in love with Heath Ledger again.

December

Fun times. Holy fuck I'm 21. Ok apart from that. Heath Ledger will never get out of my head. Met another guy who looks amazing but doesn't study and apparently he can't speak English. I just hope that's a stupid joke. If it's true, I dunno, I'm sorry for him. Went out with friends, uni ended, had to write my first essay and make a presentation. Fail. Fun times, weird guys hahhahaha. You gotta love Stone. My parents came here, it was nice but time went by too fast. Met the guy I used to find interesting at uni in April (in Stone, of course). He's amazing. And the year ended with me looking like Bella in that scene in Twilight where she wakes up because Edward is waiting outside for her next to his car and she gets up, goes to the window, looks at him like an alcoholic at their favourite drink and shakes her head like "Holy Mother and Jesus, this isn't real. It's all a dream, whoa. OMG. I. have. nothing. to. say. Huh. Ok. I have to do stuff now." Yeah. Annoying.

I haven't made any resolutions for 2010. But they would be the same as last year:

1. Lose weight
2. Pass the exams with good grades
3. Make good friends
4. Continue to have a good job
5. Have more money
6. Maybe have a REAL boyfriend. I mean not like a stupid fling
7. Have a healthy family