A new temporary (I think) phobia.

Why is it that everytime or almost everytime people (it's something general, I'm not implying that everyone is doing it) get in a fight with the person they're in a relationship with...I mean like a HUGE fight, one of the two ends up sleeping with some random person or an ex or a friend or something like that? Why does sex have to be the "solution" to everyone's problems? I mean seriously, do you actually feel better the next morning, knowing that actually you shouldn't have had sex with someone you don't intend to see again for the rest of your life after doing that? UGH it's so annoying! What the hell, people?! Ok, maybe I don't get it! Maybe I never will! Maybe sex is a magical cure to all the spiritual or mental or whatever problems! I'm just writing about this because of some episodes I've seen and some other things I've heard and maybe because I'm going through a long phase of sex hating. I don't get it and I'm so sorry! I regret everything! I do! Because NOW I can't imagine for even a fracture of a second that sex could be something good and something that I might need from time to time. I just find it repulsive! And I didn't before. I always thought it's something extremely normal (well I still think it is normal, but now I just think it's normal when you're in a relationship with someone and you don't intend to DUMP them afterwards or dump them in general) and the logical step in a relationship. And then I would panic and start asking myself :"OK, if you're in a relationship with a guy, how long should you let him wait?" Bla bla and now I'm just asking myself if this world is truly full of guys who only want that and who can't have a platonic relationship with a girl. I soooo want an Edward Cullen. 'Cause while I'm human he wouldn't pressure me or anything and when I'm a vampire we can have godly sex and I'll know that we'll be together forever and we'll be very happy even after 50000 years.
I'm so mad! And sick of all these vulgar things around me! There is no more decency on this planet! It makes me want to throw up! I'm going to go read now. And I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE SNEEZE LIKE THERE'S NO FUCKING TOMORROW STOP SNEEZING SO LOUD WTF I HAVE THE IMPRESSION YOU'RE IN THE SAME FUCKING ROOM WITH ME AND YOU'RE IN A DIFFERENT APARTMENT!! STUPID GERMANS! THEY HAVE NO RESPECT! THEY DON'T COVER THEIR STUPID MOUTHS WHILE YAWNING OR COUGHING OR WHATEVER. GO DIE.

New Moon!!